Megan Schratwieser needed a bigger box to hold memories of time spent with her son.
The first-time mom carried him for seven and a half months. She and her husband, Justin, named the baby Grayson V. She picked out the outfit he'd wear home from the hospital -- a striped navy onesie with "mom rocks" embroidered on the front, booties and a hat to match.
Schratwieser, 22, had a normal pregnancy. She said her doctor told her at her last appointment before Grayson's birth that he was perfect. That same day, she got a migraine that lasted through the weekend. She called her doctor, who gave her a prescription.
On Sunday, Grayson wasn't moving like he normally did. Schratwieser took a bath and felt him kick for the last time.
When she awoke Monday, she knew something wasn't right. She dropped her stepson off at school and went to York Hospital.
She learned her baby had died in her womb, seven weeks before his due date. She asked the nurse to call her husband and her mom.
She felt shocked, heartbroken and hurt.
Schratwieser had the choice to go home and have the baby naturally within a few days or to be induced. She said she couldn't imagine walking around knowing her baby wasn't alive.
That night, she and her family talked about what to do with his body. Schratwieser said he was too small to embalm, so he had to be cremated. She delivered Grayson V on Sept. 25 after nine hours of labor.
"I felt kind of awful that I knew what was going to happen," she said. "Once he was out, it would confirm that he's gone."
The couple's family and friends came to support them. At first, Schratwieser wasn't sure if she wanted to see Grayson.
The nurses washed, weighed and measured the baby.
Schratwieser's mother told her that he looked perfect, like he was asleep.
Schratwieser held her son, and she cried. She dressed him in the outfit she picked out. A photographer took photos of Grayson and his family. Visitors passed Grayson around the room. Schratwieser clipped pieces of his hair.
A nurse took Grayson away for the night and brought him back to his mom in the morning. As the hours passed, she knew time with her son was ending. She gave him to a nurse. She had to let go.
"I almost felt bad doing it," she said. "You're not supposed to send your baby away.
In an autopsy, she said, doctors found no cause for Grayson's death.
While in the hospital, a nurse gave her a memory box donated by a church from La Verne, Calif., to keep things that reminded her of Grayson.
Schratwieser put the outfit he was going to wear home, a lock of his hair, hospital bracelets, a comb and pictures of him in the box.
After returning home, she needed something to keep her busy and a way to cope with her grief. Her best friend, Margaret O'Tanger, 21, helped her talk about her loss and suggested that she share her story online.
Schratwieser decided to start a nonprofit called Gifts From Grayson to carry on her son's memory while helping other parents of infant loss. She makes memory boxes filled with things that helped her feel comfort while in the hospital.
Schratwieser said she loved the box she received at the hospital, but it would've been nice if it was a little bigger. The box she received was round and about 7 inches wide.
She spray paints large shoe boxes pink and blue and attaches felt clouds and sheep stickers. She fills them with travel-size shampoos and deodorants, journals, picture frames and hair ties.
She plans to donate them to parents of stillborns at York Hospital. She also creates bags filled with similar items for parents with babies in the neonatal intensive care unit. Schratwieser collects donations to help make the boxes. So far, people have contributed $300 to $400 and a lot of items.
She has made 12 boxes and said she'll keep going.
Her mom, Amy Bashore, 38, of Gettysburg, said Gifts From Grayson has helped Schratwieser tell her story and begin to heal.
Bashore said she lost twin girls when she was 7 months pregnant. She didn't talk about her feelings.
"I didn't want Megan to go through that," she said.
Schratwieser said she and Justin struggle with Grayson's death. But it helps her to know she's sharing a little bit of her son's memory with each box she makes.
Megan Schratwieser started Gifts From Grayson in October. She delivered her stillborn son, Grayson V, on Sept. 25 at York Hospital. She makes memory boxes for other parents of stillborns and comfort bags for parents of babies in the neonatal intensive care unit.
She fills the boxes and bags with travel-size shampoos, soaps and deodorants, journals, picture frames, lip balms and other items.
She accepts money and items.
To donate, visit giftsfromgrayson.blogspot.com or email email@example.com.
About one in 160 pregnancies result in stillbirth.
Birth defects, placenta problems, poor fetal growth, infections, umbilical cord problems and chronic health conditions of the mother can lead to stillbirths.
To reduce the risk, women should see their health care provider for a preconception visit.
In the NICUCheck out multiplatform journalist Stacia Fleegal's writings about her son's time in the neonatal intensive care unit at smartmagpa.com.
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